maza-dohta: there is a silencein this world that only artistscan hear; it sounds likea scream in...

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:10:38 -0400

there is a silence
in this world
that only artists
can hear;

it sounds like
a scream in the
middle of a
crowded street,
and no one turning
around too look.

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Sun, 19 May 2013 00:40:56 -0400

l0st-inyourlove: This is absolutely amazing. im in love with...

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:34:01 -0400

l0st-inyourlove:

This is absolutely amazing. im in love with this.

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Sun, 19 May 2013 00:30:16 -0400

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Sun, 19 May 2013 00:28:46 -0400

vacants: Borko (by ddakki)

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:28:21 -0400

vacants:

Borko (by ddakki)

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Sun, 19 May 2013 00:27:24 -0400

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Sun, 19 May 2013 00:26:45 -0400

Reblog this if you can really use a hug right now.

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:25:39 -0400

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Sun, 19 May 2013 00:24:27 -0400

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I wish I was dead.

Sun, 19 May 2013 00:20:56 -0400

I am sick and fucking tired of being led on and then dropped a few days later. So I met this guy on Facebook. He and I got along immediately. We were into the same things and everything and we were both going to audition for the same musical. I admit that we started moving pretty fast. Then things started to die down between us. He would seem uninterested and I asked him many times if we moved too fast or if he even liked me. He said we did move too fast, but he liked me and then would continue to say cute shit to me and sometimes would get sexual. This happened like two other times. Finally I asked him what we are and he said “Sorry, we’re just friends. I apologize for any confusion.”

Then I started talking to this other guy on Kik. He lived two hours away from me. We started flirting and got along really well. He would say cute things like “Let’s cuddle” or “You’re so cute” etc. etc. Then he stops talking to me. Finally I find out he dosen’t even likes me and likes four other people instead.

Like, what the fuck is wrong with me to think that someone could actually like me. This has happened so many other times. I can’t keep doing this. I trust people and open up to them, starting to like them and then they just drop me. Not only has this happened to me in relationships, but my dad dropped me and left for Florida and my mom practically drops me any time she has a boyfriend. She’ll say her kids are first, but that’s bullshit because she’s threatened to give me up to the state multiple times and she’s said she hated me a billion times because I “caused” her and boyfriend to break up.

I fucking hate that I trust people only to get abandoned in the end.

I’d honestly rather be dead then have trust broken again.

And on top of all of that, I’m losing practically all of my friends. Most of my friends from Mass, except for one or two, act like I’m dead because I haven’t heard from most of them in over two years. All my close friends are graduating in a week and will eventually leave Georgia. I have been living with my aunt and uncle while my mom lives in some shitty motel because got evicted because she wont get a job and her boyfriend used all of our money for crack and he sold our food stamp cards.

I haven’t talked to my dad in forever because he never sends child support and when he does we never get it because it ends up “lost in the mail” and I think he’s doing this so life will be awful in Georgia and then I’ll want to live with him. And then he says that my mom has been stealing the child support and using it to buy crack or weed, which I actually think is possible. So yet again, I cannot trust either of them.

I have had the urge to cut every single fucking day lately and my mood swings have been happening constantly. One minute I’ll be fine and then next I’ll be in the bathroom crying because I can’t cry in the same room as my cousin.

I’m posting this on Tumblr because I know no one reads this shit, and even if they do…they’re supportive and helpful. And if you do read this, I’m sorry for the rant.

I just honestly wish I was dead right now.

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Sat, 18 May 2013 22:56:46 -0400

I can not tell you how beautiful this picture is.

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:40:33 -0400

I can not tell you how beautiful this picture is.

Can I have a boyfriend who kisses me like this?

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:25:21 -0400

Can I have a boyfriend who kisses me like this?

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maza-dohta: there is a silencein this world that only artistscan hear; it sounds likea scream in...

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vacants: Borko (by ddakki)

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Reblog this if you can really use a hug right now.

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I wish I was dead.

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I can not tell you how beautiful this picture is.

Can I have a boyfriend who kisses me like this?

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